Im A Screw Up

 Yup yup, there really is no denying what a screw up I am.

I had the test at 2pm. I had read the material though not THAT thoroughly since I ran out of time. But I didn't think I was that screwed. Or maybe its just my misplaced optimism. Blegh.

So to cut a long and painful story short, I screwed up a couple (read: multiple) questions due to just confusing something with something else and other silly mistakes which I should have not done.

On the bright side, this will motivate me to kick ass in the finals to save my depressingly low CGPA.

Bye bye Dean's list if I screw this up.

There has been progress towards this goal, not just cakap kosong sahaja! I went to look at histopathology slides til 30 mins ago :)

Oh and I managed to squeeze in watching Confessions of A Shopaholic - after the exam, before the review session. It was fun & I have to admit I laughed out loud during some parts.

I think Isla Fisher (I think its her) was so believable and naive. It made her seem endearing. 

Will try to stop thinking about my many failure and focus of future successes.

My brain hurts.

Where did the time go?

I didn't realize it, or I sub-conciously did but didn't accept it. Who knows

The reality is its the last week of classes for 2nd year.

Where did the time go? I cannot believe its been two years.

I have a test coming up on Friday. Im not freaking out which makes me wonder why.

Then its one week at home for study week, 2-3 weeks of exams.

Please please let me pass so I can have 4 weeks of break to do whatever I want. 

Though I think I will be at home revising anatomy and using my little brother as a mannequin to practice clinical skills. Oh and buying clinical books.

SCRATCH THAT: just found that there will be 2 whole weeks before the Arb exam. That means I only get 2 weeks at home & I will be driving myself crazy in my room for 2 weeks. May take a trip to Sarawak or something. I hate the stupid-annoying-meyusahkan orang schedule.

Going to 3rd year is scarrryy. No more 8-5 classses. No more pingpong (well hopefully theres a pingpong table). Scary clinicians. Being the bottom of the food chain at the hospital. Moving to Sandakan. Not being with all 70 of my classmates as we will be in 3 groups.

I bought 3 cartons of juice. Im not sure why. I was supposed to buy lunch, that didnt happen. Song obsessions: LES YEUX OUVERTS - ENZO ENZO & Garota de Ipanema Tom Jobim Vinicius de Moraes (Legendado) in Portugese :)

                                                

Annual Dinner

Annual Dinner at Nexus Karambunai Ballroom

Flashback

Just chanched upon my previous blog.

It was sometime after Pasum and just starting here in Sabah.

I don't even know that person is anymore, I was happy & excited about everything.

Tika's Bday party in 07

Note to self: must find optimistic self once again & get rid of jaded moody self.

A Fragile Design

Its interesting how you love to do something but one day you just stop.

Not for any paticular reason. You just stop.

I love playing futsal, but I stopped.

The tournament is coming up. Everyone's psyched to improve on our performance last year.

Nombor dua :p

Cassie's awesome bandmate coached us! 

I'm bummed that I don't get to play.

I'll be at home for the 'engagement'

If I knew it was THAT weekend I would have taken a morning flight..boo!

Anyways, practice was fun fun fun.

Just came back from the guy's football match.

The lost 2-1. Tapi takpe, like coach said "Asalkan enjoy ok sudah!"

I screamed from the sidelines for 2 hours :D

Some random quiz:

Some of it is really true. No need to elaborate which parts.

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Love Is All You Need